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THE
JOYGRAM™
from Peggy Joyce, PCC, The Joy Coach™
Volume 2, Number 1, March 1, 2003
Circulation: Ever-Growing
Subscription is free. Sharing is encouraged. Subscription info here.
Notice:
I reserve the right to change my perceptions as well as my weight
and hair color. What you can count on is openness, an unabashed
belief in a beneficent Creator, and the ability to see another point
of view. Dialogue is encouraged.
WELCOME
TO NEW SUBSCRIBERS. Thank you for your subscription and
for sharing The JoyGram with your friends and colleagues. Your thoughts,
comments and disagreements are solicited and welcome. I love a worthy
adversary and a ruthlessly compassionate friend!
ANNOUNCEMENTS
1. MONEY MOXIE Teleclass. Begins Wednesday, March 12, 2003. Money
Moxie will give you: Insights into limiting and painful beliefs
about yourself and money. Ways to shift and change any beliefs that
don't serve you. A simple, workable plan to carry you forward. A
safe and supportive place to create discovery and change. Class
size limited to 10; send me an email to get the details.
2.
Coaching for personal anarchy: Revolutionize your career or your
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Email thejoycoach@arn.net
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and details about various anarchic coaching packages.
Benevolent anarchy is your course whenever
you ruthlessly change something within your belief structures,
your thoughts and your behaviors that does not serve you.
VERY
PERSONAL ANARCHY
For months, I have been without words. That is why you haven't gotten
a JoyGram since December.
Actually,
what I have been is without personal words that I felt had anything
to say that would be of any value to anyone else. You see, in my
misery I have been deciding what was of value to others and what
was not.
That's
part of the pain of a breakdown. I haven't been able to find joy.
I haven't been able to feel passion for much of anything. I haven't
felt significant. I have doubted the very existence of anything
of value in my life and have, frankly, thought about how much easier
it seems to not be in this world at all. While I can't say that
I've been suicidal, I can say that I think I understand how people
get to that point. I have spent hours playing games on the computer
so as to not have to think or do because I don't want to do what's
in front of me and I can't stand much of what's going on in my mind.
What
precipitated this aptly named "dark night of the soul" is that I
began to understand something. Something that threw me and my whole
life into a maelstrom. I started understanding that if indeed God
does exist then the only possible logical thing to do in the face
of that existence is to surrender oneself to that presence and wisdom
and live its truth. I saw that I'd been giving great lip service
to belief and hadn't been living it. At best, I've been living it
superficially.
Many
years ago, I did some workshops with the man Oprah's world knows
as Dr. Phil. He was as wonderfully and irritatingly in your face
then as he is now. He used to say "Ninety-nine percent is hell and
100% is a piece of cake!" I didn't know until now what he meant.
Living superficially what you say you believe is ultimately excruciating.
It IS hell!
What's
next? Well, I wish I could say that I'm past this and I know what's
next. I don't know what's next. The one thing I do know is that
it's not going to look like it's looked before. I'll keep you posted.
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2003, Peggy Joyce. All rights reserved. The JoyGram may be distributed
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